A Sense of Control

by Tropaion

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released June 28, 2015

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Vocals - Jack
Guitar - Phil
Drums - Ben

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Track Name: Matriarch
Alone I stand, the worlds weight in the palm of my hand
I am god and the devil, a being with no control of its vessel
my strings are pulled in opposing ways, a juxtaposition between fear and faith
in the form of a monster whose death might be my saving grace

oh father, you're the worst of me
the brooding devil who crafted my strings
in unison with mother whom tied them to me
a sense of control is all I crave

matriarch
dont strangle me, let me grow give me room to breath
they possess my mind and tighten the strings
im not even the ghost in my own machine

I stalk the night
and chase the voices away
they lurk in the shadows and they know my name
paranoid, delusional the devil says as if he cant see the strings
that digs those shadows graves

I can hear gods laugh
I am a pawn in this game
she is beautiful in the ugliest way
to this day I cant stand the sound
that the devil makes, the cackling
shriek of their chess game

no control
They watching every move I make
no control, my strings shake

*spoken word
spinning around and around and around spinning around and around and around*

This violence is quiet
I struggle to my feet
the devil has my hands
and his mask is only skin deep

look a bit closer
notice his hands in me
look at the loose stitches
splitting at the seam

oh father, you're the worst of me
the brooding devil who crafted my strings
in unison with mother whom tied them to me
a sense of control is all I crave

matriach
dont strangle me, let me grow give me room to breath
they possess my mind and tighten the strings
im not even the ghost in my own machine

matriach
dont strangle me, let me grow give me room to breath
they possess my mind and tighten the strings
im not even the ghost in my own machine

I hide in the shadows stalking the night
in the places even god cant shine her light
she smiles at me, just out of reach
a string snaps
to our mutual disbelief

as our eyes locked
all she could see was the horror
of death playing my strings

I took her eyes
Track Name: Marionette
No time to think
and no where left to run,
my minds a blur and the nights growing thin
covered in sweat and blood, I could smell her fear
either way my cold indifference is all I feel

my mother's dead, her eyes glazed and cold
I should feel some sort of sadness but I simply dont
it was not my choice to be this way, cold and sadistic
she gave me life, I took hers away

locked in step, locked in thought
all I see is her
blink, and the bloods is back on my hands
eugh
locked in step, locked in thought
all I see is her
blink again and again
and again and again
all I see is her

oh, devil speak to me
tell me what possessed my hands
and the purpose it brings

and from inside it screams to me
a deafening roar beyond understanding
my eyes roll into my head and into hell I descend

I awake
within my mind
there is no where left to run
I called for the void and it beckoned
I am god but the devil has the answers
and with a thought the beast began to answer

your mother's dead, her eyes glazed and cold
you grasp this world if only to watch it choke
is it only now that you see, yourself a puppet
dangling from gods strings

(Breakdown 1)
The Devil and god raged inside me
the strength of both
Creating I,the mighty unholy
oh delusions of grandeur
i am but a man
gone mad with illusions
flying to close to the sun
my wings melted

oh, devil speak to me
tell me what possessed my hands
and the purpose it brings

an internal resentment

beyond what I have seen
the inner workings of the mind
I embodies the void internally

these are my eyes, dead and cold
my soul is a void, a spiritual comatose

I awake to a painful reality
that I am god and devil has taken over me
the untamed, a beast a slave
not by choice
suspended in strings
Track Name: Agony
Years have passed since the day
the rope snapped, plunging creation into decay
the choice was made, that a chain of events would bring
the two who remain together again

I waited, you never came
I measured time by the bottles drank
Spent the hours carving your name
into the walls of this house I made

untethered I crawled from the earth
let my pain role over the world
let none escape

Do her bones keep you warm?
Does her ghost push you on?
Can you see her whole?
has the devil found faith after all?
is heaven silent, or god just ignoring my laments?
forgive me I repent, in response the words: never again

I am the failure that followed you home, I am the seed that refuses to grow, I am the hand that drags you down from below, the architect of all you behold
coming from a mind that you cant control
dont you see the strings are what saved you
you beg at my alter
to strike a plea
that youll live with the agony

I have been waiting for the day
to end the pain, to take what you crave
To drag your coffin straight to its grave
stay in your grave, stay in your grave

So absorbed in your own pain
the devil and god raging inside of you
pulling on the strings your suspended by
one dragging you to heaven and the other to hell

I have been waiting for the day
to end the pain, to take what you crave
To drag your coffin straight to its grave
stay in your grave, stay in your grave

we stood for hours as regret creaked through the room
if these walls had mouths all you would hear is tales of neglect and abuse

I may be the devil but I still feel pain, in this world I am separated marionette, I will pull your strings again.

I dance as the devil plays my strings, moving to his symphony.

age has left me old I can barely see
come closer my son you are the worst of me
this is the revenge I seek
I take your control, sever my soul from this body

I waited, you never came
I measured time by the bottles drank
Spent the hours carving your name
into the walls of this house I made

does the house still groan?
Does your ghost still haunt these walls?
has the devil found peace after all?
is heaven silent, or god just ignoring my laments?
forgive me I repent, in response the words: never again

NEVER AGAIN
Track Name: Alone
Death follows me, wherever I go
look hard enough and you will see that black cloak flow
birds and flowers wither where I step
listen closely, you can hear him breathing down my neck
a family in ruin, only one left to go
stumble down that road alone
feel the earth begin to stir
it knows its about to swallow
me
whole

I am a product of fate
Its a well known fact, I embody decay
none hold my hand whilst I hang
suspended by my own weight
all I ask is you dont save me
please dont save me

The grains of time slip through my fingers
day after day the sun grows dimmer
drag my feet along the road
with miles to go, I go alone
with miles to go, I am dragged alone
with worn skin down to the bone
I cheated death once
I offered her eyes
the debt is claimed
I payed with my life
I climbed a rope into the sky
now here I hang
my head suspended in perpetual shame
a leash for a beast once untamed

A sense of control, is what i've been chasing
for all of my life, for all of my life
now here he stands
with the rope in hand
He finds a blank piece of the family wall
and etches his name like his father before
death follows me wherever I go
look hard enough you'll see that black cloak flow

With the knot above my neck
the rope snaps, not even death will take me back
I can not live, I can not die
no control, again deprived

Alone